Christmas day

Christmas Day. Sometimes at big family events I feel kind of lost, engulfed in the large crowd that is my beautiful family I get quieter and quieter, drawing back into myself. When I think about it I know it is silly to feel this way; my family know me better than anyone. But maybe that is why I feel like this. I focus too much on how I think they see me - I just fulfil expectations.

The build up to Christmas however is my favourite time of year. I love the excitement; I love the promise that for at least a few weeks me and my sisters will be at home. And for those few weeks I get to spend time with my three best friends in the world. I couldn’t ask for anything more.

It is this positivity, and fleetingly happy attitude that I need to grasp hold of and build on. Rather than feeling trapped by this scared ‘version of me’ I need to set myself free.

For Christmas this year my parents gave me gifts that would encourage the discovery of a new, stronger Georgina and I couldn’t thank them enough. Today they gave me a MNB Lorna Jane diary, which is full of inspirational quotes about discovering and moving your body; about loving yourself and striving for your dreams; it is just beautiful. They also gave me things to encourage a healthy relationship with food – to fuel the good and to show me support; The Green Kitchen cookbook, a new blender, multi-coloured utensils… I knew it already, but I truly am blessed.

So tomorrow I plan to wake up with a new attitude. Moving toward the end of 2013 and the start of a new year, we are reminded that we can always begin again. It is a corny idea, and probably said too often, but 2014 is going to be my year. My dreams are big and I choose to believe in them.

Happy Christmas everyone. I hope you have had an amazing day.