Finally back...

It has been a while. But here I am, back in the bloggersphere, looking back at my last post and finding it hard to believe that I wrote it less than a month ago. A lot has passed over the last 28 days; I have struggled through multiple essays, long nights and early mornings. I have found myself at the library before sun rise trying to ensure a seat, wishing more than ever that caffeine ran on a drip and praying that I might be able to get through just one more hour of revision. Ultimately, the past month has been a struggle… but the worst is over. Last week I completed my final exam until June; the last January exam I will ever sit. And I have learnt about more than just the books I have studied, I learnt a lot about myself too. For one thing I discovered the impact that people have upon me. Days that should have been awful often became quite the opposite because a couple of friends decided to go against their natural ‘student’ instincts and fight to urge to slam their hands on snooze buttons. We might have arrived at the library with the early morning cleaners, but at least we arrived together. When you have people around you it isn’t as easy to get stuck inside your head or to fall into negativity. They struggle with you; you struggle together. It makes everything seem okay.

So from the bad I guess there comes a lot of good. I have realised that for me, happiness is found in others. Being alone drives me to try and achieve a state of perfection that just isn’t possible, but being with other people makes me realise life is about so much more that that. I think what you have to try and remember is that worrying about being perfect is futile; and that it is laughter and happiness that is really important.